It sad, that in this generation we have to ignore someone to get their attention.
It hurts so much, when the person you thought cared most about you, in fact doesn’t. The way your heart tears. Your soul rips. Your world crashes. It’s as though the floor won’t stop moving, your eyes won’t stop blurring. You swallow the lump in your throat.
You just can’t understand can you. How one minute they can be riding with you, and then suddenly switch lanes without notice. It’s crazy how you can mean so much to a person, and overnight don’t. The pieces don’t fit and the answers don’t make sense.
One day it won’t matter.
It’s such a shame, it’s such a shame that, that one person could not appreciate the goodness that you have in your heart. It’s such a shame that, that one person was not big enough to fulfill the promises they once made. It’s such a shame that, that one person bought disappointment to your feet. It is such a shame that for you the sun does not shine anymore.
But we haven’t been given the power to control a beings actions nor their emotions. Sadly enough we don’t live in the fantasy world we’d all love to hide away in. Our hearts must endure the pain as we see the number of days that are to come. Long nights. Slow days. Time doesn’t stop, the world doesn’t stop, people don’t stop. Everything continues moving as must we. Recovery is something that you have to work on every single day, it doesn’t get a day off.
They say grief comes in two parts.
The first is loss. The second is remaking of life.