I’m Sorry God. 

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I’m sorry God, I’m sorry that I push you so far away that I struggle to feel your presence some days. Your teachings have been threaded into my soul, they keep me together during my darkest hours. Yet there are times, when sadness hangs over my body and takes my attention away from what really matters. I let the world and its cruelty consume me, I battle with myself daily. Until I feel your presence again and I remind myself, my God will never burden a soul more than what he can bare! 

I’m sorry God.

Im sorry, for neglecting you, for allowing myself to forget you. While I fight my own battles I forget to remind myself that you wait for me, to turn to you. I ask so much of you, from the moment I’m awake! I’m sorry for failing to give you a moments thought. To be better than the person I was yesterday, is the biggest challenge I face. I strive to be the best version of myself, but I lose focus, and it gets harder to see through it.

On a daily basis I fight my own demons; today I’m sorry God for those people who take your teachings and your words to give their own meaning to it.

Do not kill WOMEN 

Do not kill CHILDREN

Do not kill the ELDERLY 

Do not kill WORSHIPPERS

Do not burn a TREE

Do not destroy a HOUSE

Do not kill an ANIMAL 

Do not BETRAY 

Do not act TREACHEROUSLY

Muhammed (PBUH)

I’m sorry God,

I’m sorry that your words, your beautiful teachings are used to represent violence and fear. People use your name to kill WOMEN and CHILDREN. People use your name to DESTROY houses and KILL worshippers in their, Masjids, Churches, Temples! There are people who have their own version of Islam and try to confuse the word God. But I promise…

For every child killed; I’ll smile at every stranger I walk past. 

For all the dignities these people stole from women; I’ll give the homeless guy who plays the guitar under the subway a penny. 

For all those throats that were ripped open; I’ll send out a prayer for you and your families, to help them during this heart aching time in their lives. A prayer to send those suffering patience and strength. 

Love, Always

Nm ♡ P.s – a story I will forever hold close to my heart. ♡♡♡

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Imam Ahmed, in his peak, was the most famous man known within the Muslim community. He was such a humble man, so loved and popular. 1.3 Million people came to pray at his funeral! One day on his travels to A-Shaam Syria, he had to stop the night to rest. He found a nearby Mosque to which he entered to stay the night. The Mosque guard quickly noticed him, grabbed him and threw him out the gates of the mosque. Although Imam Ahmed was a popular and beloved Scholar, he wasn’t recognised by a lot of people as he covered his face with his scarf, to conceal his identity out of humility. After being thrown out Iman Ahmed slept on the steps of the Mosque, to guard found him still on Mosque property, he grabbed him by his legs and dragged him onto the streets! A baker nearby, who worked through the night watched the whole thing and invited Imam Ahmed to stay in his shop while he prepared his bread for the morning. Imam Ahmed noticed the baker and how with everything he did, he remembered God by continuously and consistently seeking his forgiveness. Alhumdulilah, Subhanallah, Astakhfurillah! Imam Ahmed asked the baker, how long he’d been reciting whilst working to which the baker replied, EVERYDAY. The Scholar then asked, what kind of effect has this had on your life? The baker responded… There hasn’t been one thing I’ve asked for that God has not given to me. There has not been an unanswered prayer besides one. Imam Ahmed stood, and asked what prayer has he not answered for you?!! The baker looked at the Scholar and said I’ve been praying to God to give me the chance to meet this famous Scholar, IMAN AHMED, but I’m yet to seize the chance. The Scholar pulled the baker into a tight embrace and said to him tearfully,
because of your prayers, day and night, tonight, Imam Ahmed was dragged by his feet to your doorstep so you can meet him!  

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25 Comments Add yours

  1. hellov says:

    This is beyond beautiful. Thank you for sharing your heart.

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    1. NM says:

      Thank you so much for reading ❤️

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  2. Very well written and most powerful. Thank you for sharing with me once again.

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    1. NM says:

      Thank you for reading as always John! Always appreciated X

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  3. Mary Job says:

    Ahmed’s story is touching. Yours a beautiful write up as usual. Stated above, Do not kill animals…For fun or to eat or in defence?? Lolz.

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    1. NM says:

      For fun, so for instance shooting an animal for your own pleasures. Thank you for reading Mary, it always brings a smile to my face ❤️

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      1. Mary Job says:

        You most welcome NM. Ooh for fun isn’t nice, why shoot an animal for fun I always wondered. It’s not humane.

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      2. NM says:

        There are a lot of sick people out there, fortunate for me I’ve never had that much bad luck, I’ve never known any!

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  4. Mary Job says:

    I don’t pray you do. Cheerio.

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    1. NM says:

      ❤️❤️❤️

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  5. Amra Ismail says:

    Good one. I’ve heard that story before and I appreciate it very much that you have brought it into such focus. Do checkout my post crushing stereotypes. That too deals with the rules in Islam such as do not kill women etc. It would be a great pleasure if you could. Thank you and keep smiling 🙂

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    1. NM says:

      Thank you for passing by and having a read! I’m glad you liked it! I will definitely check it out ❤️

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  6. Ameena k.g says:

    What a wonderful story to end this post. It genuinely touched my heart. Masha Allah

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    1. NM says:

      Thank you so much Ameena❤️❤️❤️

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  7. Masha’Allah. …I believe that this should be our attitude towards everything.wanting to do something good for every wrong done.
    May Allah forgive our sinful souls and make us of the repenting bunch.
    Jazakallah khair

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  8. very powerful post… Im going to spotlight it on joewriteshiswrong.com

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  9. A Soul Longing For It's Creator says:

    Beautiful Masha’Allah 💖

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    1. NM says:

      Thank you so much ❤️

      Like

  10. A Soul Longing For It's Creator says:

    Beautiful post, masha’Allah 💖

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  11. KayCee says:

    This is beautiful and I love the story at the end!! Great lesson to live by. Thank you for the reminder that we live in a world that if we are not too careful has the ability to consume us and forget our Maker. Thank you for sharing xoxo

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    1. NM says:

      You’re welcome! Thank you so much for reading xxx

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  12. First of all a truly wonderful tale. That is exactly how G-d acts in this world. As far as feeling distant from G-d there is an expression that I particularly like which says:
    If you’re feeling distant from G-d, guess who moved
    All the best
    Moshe

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