I am not perfect. But my faith keeps me grounded. My life isn’t perfect, and even at the tender age of 23 I have faced my own fair share of trials. But my faith keeps me going. My soul has been ripped to pieces because of disappointment. But my faith continues to gives me hope.
There are those who see faith as a social force that encourages irrational thoughts and ritualistic behaviors. People have carried this opinion throughout history but people’s faith in their religions has survived and thrived for more than 100,000 years. Faith exists in every culture. It lives in the homes of 85 percent of this population. A common belief unifying groups of people into one.
For me, my faith is an intense belief in the unseen. An intense belief I do not question. An intense belief that has always been with me. I have never known a time to not know God or have his presence in my life. I have been angry with God, I have questioned God, I have run away from God, I have questioned Gods existence, but there has never been a time where I have not known God.
Throughout my life my faith in my God has kept me alive. It has been my secret weapon to fight through most of the battles in my life. Today I am here to tell how 5 reasons why Faith has been my secret weapon.
I am a massive go getter! I have a zealous drive for results and aim to receive the best results in everything I put my hands on. I consider myself as being quite independent and I very rarely rely on others to pave a path for myself. There have been a handful of occasions where I have been stuck in a permanent rut & nothing I did would move me out of it. A recent one was when I quit my job to start working in a field I had absolutely no experience in. I have written a post about this, you can find that here. Anyways, during these ruts I am at my weakest. I question my own existence, I question my tomorrow, I question my journey. Everything is a question for me and the confusion drives me insane because I blame myself for things not going right. Sometimes it gets to such a point where my heart can feel the burdens of my own misery to a point I can’t breathe. I can be so hard on myself, I can be the cause of my own destruction. But it is my faith that gives me the strength to go on. Trials and tribulations are a common part of life and the pain I receive from it is really a test of my faith. When I turn to God I am told he will never burden my soul more beyond it can bare. This tells me that all the difficulties I am facing have been sent to me as battles to fight as my core is strong enough to beat them. Any situation I am end up in will always be a direct results of my own actions and sins but it is up to me to use the resources given to me by God such as patience to overcome my difficulties. Relief comes from distress and ease comes from hardship!
I am a very fortunate girl for a girl of my age. I have had an amazing childhood growing up. My parents have given me more than what I need and have I lived a comfortable life. I have been given the opportunity to educate myself and to work full time. I am currently working towards building a career for myself in the field I am working in and have been successful in everything I have really put my mind to even if it took me longer than others to get to where I am. I can be arrogant about this and look down at the people who don’t have all the nice and shiny things I do. I can be rude and choose not to associate myself with people who aren’t of the same class as me. I can be bitter and hurl abuse at anyone who isn’t doing as well as me or is taking even longer to get to where they want to be. But I don’t. Because my faith teaches me otherwise. My faith encourages me to be humble because everything I have earned and worked for can be taken away from in an instant. My life can turn 360% if that is what God wills. Just as God has willed the blessings in my life, my arrogance towards it can help in having it all removed from me. This encourages humility in me. The world humility in itself derives from the Latin word ‘ground’ thus being humble means to be modest, submissive, submissive and respectful, not proud and arrogant.
I am a temperamental person. I can switch from 61 different moods in just 60 seconds. I am hot headed and my initial reaction to anything that doesn’t please me is anger. Little ol me has the same level of patience and temper as a grumpy old man. Most of the time it is over things I cannot control. I have probably been angry for 98% of my living life. I find 100 reasons to be angry! I don’t know where I store it all. My anger has fueled me to hold grudges and burn bridges. It has a negative effect on my moods and that eventually effects the people around me too. My anger towards other people is the worst and it is my faith that reminds me that I am not perfect how can I expect other people to be perfect. I make mistakes all the time how can I not expect others to make mistakes? I mess up and I sin and expect forgiveness from God almost every single day. Who am I to hold a grudge against someone on anger?
There have been times where I haven’t met a goal or things haven’t gone the way I have planned. It’s a natural occurrence. I don’t know my destiny so I can’t expect to know what it written for. Because I am person who enjoys control the different valleys of her life; things not going the way I plan for them to go, really grates on me and this results into me driving myself into an oblivion of darkness. I am an impatient person by nature but my faith forces me to be patient. My fate is already sealed and written. The pen has already lifted and the ink has already dried. Everything in my life has already been planned for me beforehand by my creator. God has made patience like a horse that never gets tired. An army that can never be defeated and a fortress that can never be breached. Patient and victory go hand in hand like brothers. My ultimate success will only give birth with patience. Those who are patient are are rewarded with measure. So instead of going off the rails and completely letting go of my morals to fill the angry void in my stomach I am forced to remain patient. For I have to accept that my situation in is in Gods hand and whatever he wills is what is meant for me.
Like all the other religions of the world Islam too has rules in which its followers must abide. Rules in which help you decipher between making the right or wrong decision or choosing between being a good or an evil person. I have faced many crossroads. The easy but not so good road and the hard but the most rewarding road. It is my belief in God and my faith in Islam that helps me make the right decision. I have sense of moral discipline that prevents me from enacting any sort of priority in my life over my belief in God. We all crave success and stability and the regulations of one’s conduct are the ingredients to achieving this. We must all have discipline and the strength to make right choices over wrong and this power for me stems from my faith first and foremost.
What’s been your secret weapon throughout life?